When we go through the time in the cocoon and emerge a butterfly what we start to realize soon after is that who we were before is not who we are now.

We look at ourselves and we look the same, nothing has changed. No one around you sees you any differently.

You know that there has been a quantum level shift but there is no evidence of this for your mind.

It’s extremely confusing and a very crucial and vulnerable period.

In January of 2020 I had a cosmic consciousness experience. I know I've written about this before but as time goes on I am understanding more about what it was all about. As my ability to hear Gnost expands the more my mind is able to comprehend.

So, at the time when it happened I thought, "Holy shit I've made it! I've leveled up."

No suffering, no nervous system freak outs. I was truly in the Kingdom for 2 days.

I had no ego training at that point, meaning I did not know the difference between energy and consciousness. So inevitably, ego grasped at cosmic consciousness and thought that it belonged to it.

Cosmic consciousness took away all of the me's pain, problems, issues. I thought that I now wielded this new consciousness, that it belonged to "me".

Turns out that Divine Will is not to be messed with.

On day 2 I had the worst ankle injury of my life. A 6 month recovery type injury. Cosmic consciousness over. I got kicked out of the Kingdom.

This happened right before Covid was discovered in my area.

Everything in this life dried up within me. The passion, the joy for life, the zest for adventure all shriveled to a desiccated raison. All the anchors I had in outside energy dissolved.

I felt alone, confused, I could not get energy the way that I used to.

My old soul had integrated into my consciousness beyond time and space . My energy source had changed.

No one told me what was happening, the mind could not comprehend it because I never experienced anything like this before.

I realized years later that I was being shown everywhere I was not sovereign.

I was being shown what my job was now that I am the emerging butterfly.

The experience did not take those energy ties away miraculously and create a sovereign embodied being, like the ego thought it would.

It turns out it was a glimpse into what my new job is, what New Life is, and there would not be a school I could go to or a Youtube I could watch to know what to do. I had to learn with no training wheels what needed to be done.

No map existed because this was something that was between my consciousness in form (body) and my consciousness in the formless.

I had to learn how to hear my Gnost, my own built in guide, to move forward towards the Kingdom and to not get stuck in endless soul level missions.

So I learned that what I'm doing, what we're doing is going from here to over there.

The point isn't to grasp onto expanded consciousness experiences, what that was was a glimpse into my greatest potential.

My consciousness in the formless state, was showing me through Gnost what I came here to step into, a very real Reality that exists and that I came here to create a passageway from here to there.

A Reality that requires that I understand the difference between energy and consciousness so that I can bring my energy into it. A Reality that is not just going to be given to me but that I have to find my way to through actively swimming upstream.

It requires a refining within of everything that I think I am.

The source of the energy can't be found outside of Self anymore. I must look within now, in the darkness where I can't see anything, until I can hear mySelf more clearly.

The dry and stale nature of life begins to change as I find innocence again. An innocence that emerges when New Energy becomes my go to for sustenance.

The ego does not know innocence, it can only become so tenderized by consciousness that it knows its rightful place. Not in a hierarchy but in the sense that we all have jobs and it's not in charge of any of this. It's a relief!

In the show called Chosen ( season 3 episode 2) Jesus gives a teaching to his disciples and tells them that they aren't who they were before. They aren't a tax collector or a zealot.

He doesn't say anything more in depth but I knew what he meant.

They had all been traveling and living together for months at this point and during that time they were all breaking down in their cocoons. Their identities were changing, they were now listening to New Energy, to Jesus the Christ Consciousness. Learning a new way to live and be that was so different from before and they didn't understand it.

He gave them this teaching right before telling them that they were now ready to begin to dip their toes in and spread the word and be like him. ( My eye wont stop twitching right now 😅 ) It felt like a lesson to dive into their own unknown within and seek their own connection to the New Energy.

We really aren't, in anyway that the Atlantean mind thinks we are, who we were before. So we don't want to listen to the mind because it just doesn't know. We don't want to get caught for too long in karmic streams that the old soul is offering as a path because the old soul has its own agenda.

We want to listen to Gnost, the grander communication within our cosmic selves to take us further and keep us moving towards the brightest potentials we are each shown.

We go to the unknown to find our way over there and we stay over there. We let the matter dissolve to reclaim it so that it can also enter into the Kingdom.

Nothing is lost and everything is gained.