Once I realized how important this body is I started to reorient around the way I have been living in it or not living in it.

Seems like half the battle was getting back into it. Parts who really don't want to be here put up a fight and I had to rewire all of those loops. I could hear all the reasons why “I don't want to” over and over again but I know from a deeper place that that is exactly what we are doing.

There was a lot of programming around not having to put any effort into self realization, meaning the human can’t do it, which is true, but what comes after that is a whole other ballgame which requires a dedicated awareness practice or else there can be a lot of suffering.

The bliss of realization felt like a glimpse into a potential of what life could feel and be like.  But what I didn't know at the time was that in order to have the lasting experience I would need to let go of what I thought and believed living was.

I could not move on in the same way.  

Divine Will makes sure of that. (Thank God)

Re-writing all the programming through noticing it all is the discipline when diving into the mental body. It’s kind of an epic task when you realize how much you’ve been unaware of.

And then there is the physical part. The body was neglected, abandoned, hated. And yet the more I sit and feel into it the more I realize that everything is within it. 

And if I want to maximize the experience here I must notice and become aware of the mechanisms at play in my body of consciousness in order to comprehend what is going on so that I can access more layers in the subtle realms.

If consciousness is telling me I need to mediate or let something go and I do not listen or can not hear I will suffer for it.

Curiosity allows me to stay open and not dismiss what arises in the habitual way that the identity does.

There is so much I don’t know. 

I need to learn the language. I need to slowly rediscover through the only way I can, by connecting with the part that Knows.

The trick is getting our instrument so primed to be so sensitive to the subtlest frequency.

We are very used to the course waves that thunder through our day to day lives.

So as we sit in the silence and shed the resistance we start to return to something we already know so well but just forgot.

We forgot how absolutely exquisite it is to just bathe in the subtle body. To let everything be and to know yourself as God also.

The physical contains it all. It contains the very potential we seek. We can not get it anywhere else.

This is an experiential motion towards God. 

The individual mind makes moves on a horizontal trajectory, using wants and desires to make its way through the mind of God. 

Gnost isn't linear. It doesn't move from linear cell to linear cell. It is multidimensional and in total communication with every part of itself without the need for linearity.

It knows without having to be told what to do.

It feels like bliss because it’s not being pushed around to fulfill a persons agenda, instead its dancing and singing to a tune more natural than what we can perceive in the old ways.

It’s up to each of us to tune in, to refine our bodies and our minds. 

This is why we came here, its not about experiencing Maya in the same way we have been or trying to change it with personal desires, it’s to find our own return to Life.

We are here to resurrect the truth about who we are, to allow that truth to permeate through every cell. 

To dispel all of the illusions, including the illusion of death. We don't die and resurrect, we are resurrected as Life itself.